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[valia jorgensen]

hello australia, i'm cassidy trosclair and i'm twenty. i'm here because i'm a student.

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YOU'D NEVER SEE ME ..

in an alley because they really freak me out. do you know what type of people hang out in alleys? they are really not what freaks me out it's just the thought of those stray cats coming and attacking me along with finding a dead body amongst the rubbish that was laying around down there. yeah, awkward fear i'll admit.

I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED TO ..

i don't really like to say that i'm addicted to anything. being addicted to something is a psychological problem and i don't like to think that i'm addicted to anything. when you're addicted to something you no longer have control. it's just not a good situation.

I GET ANNOYED AS BEING STEREOTYPED AS A ..

i'm no longer in high school so i don't really think i'm stereotyped as much. i'm sure many seem to think of me as loony or 'not all the way there' but i'm just in a free state of mind. i don't see what's so wrong about that? why put limitations on your imagination and conform to society in the ways that it wishes you to? i'd rather not play into anyone's games.

I FEEL MOST INSECURE ABOUT ..

my weight and height, i generally appear really thin but at one point in time it wasn't always like that. my thighs kill me. i hate looking at them and i know i sound ridiculous but i can't help it. i've had an eating disorder before but i've gotten past it and it's no longer a part of me. i know that most people that knew me before will always think of me as the crazy anorexic girl but i'd like to think that's really changed.

IF I COULD TRADE LIVES WITH ANY OTHER PERSON FOR A DAY IT WOULD BE ..

ash ketchum because catching pokemon seems pretty cool, not gonna lie. i mean really i know most people are thinking i'm nuts but as a kid pokemon just seemed so cool and i really wanted one for myself.

THE LAST TIME I CRIED WAS ..

last night after i saw shutter island i was really freaked out because i woke up with the mental image of the little girl drowning and it really freaked me out. i'm scared of drowning and be burned to death i'm not really sure why seeing as i do not know anyone who has died either way it just really freaks me out for some reason, the thought of being alive knowing you're going to die soon.

THE CRAZIEST THING I'VE EVER DONE FOR SOMEONE IS ..

well, the craziest thing i have ever done for someone i guess would be giving away my possessions to the homeless. i really was tired of everything i owned and decided it could go to better use for others and well i just invited them in to take what they wanted and it was quite easy to get rid of all my excess things.

I HAVE NEVER ..

stolen anything in my life. i'm not really sure why but i never had the urge to steal anything it's just not my style. stealing has never been all that appealing to me even though at times it looks like the easy way out. i guess i just have some sort of self respect for myself to know not to do such things.

I DON'T GET NEARLY ENOUGH CREDIT FOR ..

being thoughtful i guess. i feel like i'm always there for everyone and no one is there for me. it's a scary thought and really it's one of my fears but i guess i just need to do some looking at my life and decide who i should and should not keep around.

THE MOST RIDICULOUS RUMOR I'VE HEARD ABOUT MYSELF IS ..

that i was addicted to tons of drugs. i'm really not that type of person at all and it was just funny hearing that back in high school when i was going through all of my eating problems because it seemed as if these girls would say anything just to make my life a little harder. i never understood their need to be cruel.

IF I CAN'T SLEEP IT'S USUALLY BECAUSE ..

well, i can never sleep. i take sleeping medication but it gives me awful headaches. i know some people don't understand why i can't sleep and i can't either but i just can't. it's not as if i'm afraid of the dreams or nightmares that will surely come but it's something much deeper.

IN FIVE YEARS I SEE MYSELF ..

hopefully having some direction in my life. i'm in college at the moment but my studies are surely not going to continue much longer seeing as i can't focus on anything. i'm not one for school and i know i just need to look back at things and see where it's all going to take me.

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parents ,,

keira and andre are my beloved parents and i have a pretty descent relationship with my father. my mother left when i was six years old and moved to france where she fell in love with a sculptor who was half her age. i've gone to visit her a lot throughout the years but i don't really love her. my father, andre, has since remarried to a women by the name of catherina and i guess she's the closest thing i've ever had to a mother but we don't always get a long. she likes telling me what i should do with my life but i don't like the restrictions she puts on me. she doesn't quite understand that i don't like being tied down.

siblings ,,

i have an older brother by the name of tyler and he's twenty-five now and married to his wife rebekah. she's always been my favorite of all of his girlfriends and i can't believe that she's pregnant. it seems odd to think that i will be an aunt soon because it's especially strange. i don't understand how my own brother could be a father because it seems he is not much older then me.

others ,,

no one really that's worth mentioning.

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hi monster hospital, i'm melissa, and i also play no one. but this one here is played-by erin heatherton, they're so fine.

[amory blaine]