/ take it down

[dinah avignon .]

hello australia, i'm dinah and i'm twenty one. i'm here because i want to save people (student).

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YOU'D NEVER SEE ME ..

with out my weave in. but shh, don't tell.

I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED TO ..

classic rock, my dad totally rubbed off on me .

I GET ANNOYED AS BEING STEREOTYPED AS A ..

a brain. which i'm usually not- usually, it's the ditz, but that doesn't bother me. i'd rather be stupid than smart .

I FEEL MOST INSECURE ABOUT ..

my weight, probably. i've always been thin, and people have always made fun of it.

IF I COULD TRADE LIVES WITH ANY OTHER PERSON FOR A DAY IT WOULD BE ..

donna martin, from 90210, mostly because everyone loved her .

THE LAST TIME I CRIED WAS ..

when i broke my leg last year. omfg, wost memory .

THE CRAZIEST THING I'VE EVER DONE FOR SOMEONE IS ..

when i was thirteen my best friend convinced me to shoplift her a skirt. the slut .

I HAVE NEVER ..

had a one night stand, totally true.

I DON'T GET NEARLY ENOUGH CREDIT FOR ..

eh, i get all the credit i deserve .

THE MOST RIDICULOUS RUMOR I'VE HEARD ABOUT MYSELF IS ..

that i blew a guy on the stairs in grade school and they had it on tape, and forced my parents to watch it. yeahfuckinrightt .

IF I CAN'T SLEEP IT'S USUALLY BECAUSE ..

i'm too busy thinking .

IN FIVE YEARS I SEE MYSELF ..

as a really successful pediatritian .

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history ,,

it is my personal and totally fabricated idea, that when i was born, i was very loved and adored. i guess it is to be assumed, because i was born the fourth and last child of my mother, three boys in front of me. i was then named after her, as my oldest brother was named after my father, simon. i had an older sister who was ten at the time and from my father's previous marriage as well, a serious modern day brady bunch. i never really minded growing up in my family for some reason. i was very spoiled, in my younger years. i can tell, because my brothers still to this day treat me like i'm still that toddler, even though i'm almost twenty two. as i got older, i became more aware of who my family truly was.
i don't recall either of my parents ever having to work, which was good and bad for all of us. we were wealthy, but we weren't well known, mostly because my dad was a mastermind for playing the stock market, and with all of us little kids running around, they both wanted to stay home. it seemed like a harmless gesture, but again, as i got older, even that began to make more sense. we lived in michigan, so life was a blast. my mom was hilarious- there were so many of us we had to choose in or out in the morning, but with my add it was so hard to decide, an the real trauma was if one of us got left the wrong side. we'd be doing signals through the door wall like little idiots. "tell mama i'm thirsty." "she said use the hose !" summers were fun but winters were better and playing in the snow was a blast.

one thing that stands out in my childhood, was that we were not a very healthy family. it always seemed like one of us was sick with something or another at any given time. we had a lot of accidents too, broken bones and scrapes from loose boards and just- i don't know. every day we were in and out of the doctors office. we shopped a lot, too, and with my older sister being my outlet on how a woman should look, i ran with it. i was wearing make up at twelve, heels at thirteen, and really, as i got older, i got- better looking. when i was little, i was seriously hideous, but it seemed as i turned nine, ten, things just started to even out. i tried to pull away from my family then- i was a smart kid, and i knew something was just wrong.

i was pretty healthy, but i was on a handful of medications for problems i didn't know how to say, and the same was for the rest of my family, my mother on the height of it. she wasn't exactly protective, in a way she encouraged us to get hurt. well, alright. she didn't, i mean that's my mother, i love her very much, but she was just very sick and i know that now. it was just difficult to understand at that time in my life, but i was smart. having older siblings around made me mature faster, and i excelled in school.

my parents got a sudden divorce when i was almost thirteen years old. at the time, it was me, and my two older brothers still in the home. my oldest brother had long since moved out, and my sister, cecilia, had long since stopped talking to the family. even now, i don't know why. i talk to her seldom only because it doesn't seem like she wants to talk to me. there was never any question about it- we were not going to see our mother. that was the end of the story, and all the information i got at that time. i had my limits- and while i always mantained excellent grades in school, attendance was a huge issue and there was no structure in my life. this carried into high school, and really, it carries on into my daily life.

i enjoy playing the aloof bimbo, simply because my biggest wish, is just to be a little bit more dumb. i wish i wasn't so smart, then i wouldn't sit and think and just discover things that really, should have been left unprotected. when i was eighteen, my dad told me what he'd told my brothers long before. my mother had been caught a few times by him, doing things- loosening boards and making ridged edges, and doing things to herself. apparently, she'd been suffering from depression, on a totally psychotic level. i think i know what she had, now- munchausen's by proxy, which my dad exaggerated a little. it's when you hurt yourself, to get attention. or us, our medicine. she could talk about her children's illnesses to get sympathy. i guess it's undeniable really. i try to talk to her as little as possible, but i've seen pictures of her and she's totally transgressed into a whole new world. it's disgusting.

i don't really feel like i'm close with any of my family anymore. my dad is kind of boring and burnt out- i'm really trying to get him onto the dating scene but he's being a complete bastard about it. he's lonely, i can tell. i'm going to set up an e-harmony account and screen some ladiesss for him, or set him up on a blind date or SOMETHING. he deserves normalcyy, i think.

and for me? i maintain a really steady party life. i love to dance, i love to go out- even though i'm a medical student- no pre-med for me, i'm not really living up to the mature standards as an intern and student as i should be. i mean, i'm twenty one. i want to go out, i want to do these things, and i'm really getting sick of the snarky looks from the other kids in my class. i'm smart, my GPA will tell you that, but at the end of the day,i don't want to be with the people i work with. some of the most brilliant minds, but mainly the most boring people. i just want to blend in with the masses, act like every other pretty girl in albury and have a little fun. .

siblings ,,

davey , twenty two.
michael, twenty five.
simon, twenty six.
alivia , twenty nine .

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hi monster hospital, i'm james, and i also play dink and darby. but this one here is played-by grimes, they're so fine.

[gigi valentine]